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Welp, that's it. Ryan and I are over even before we started.
It's been three days now. Monday around 9PM, he ended it unexpectedly.
I really didn't know what to feel. I was numb for at least a day or two.
I skipped color guard on Tuesday and Wednesday. It's now almost one in the morning on a Thursday. I'm currently crying because I'm finally back in my bed. The place where I texted him all night until the sun rose. I've been pretending to be okay when I'm actually not.
All the built up tears are now flowing into my purple pillow case. It hurts so much because I love him. I really love him and when he said he didn't care, it broke me down so badly.
I can't live like this. I need him now. I want him now. I want him back.